The Questionable Half

A long night looking up at the ceiling fan motivated me to write this. Everything created in this world can be divided into half, although humans have been experts in dividing things, places and anything materialistic into more than two parts, but let us say we have everything around us divided in two halves.

One of the halves is always certain, but we are uncertain about the certain half. The other half is the questionable one. The idea that people are always in pursuit of finding themselves, is what inspires us to question that half. A part of us wants to be creative and spontaneous, while the other half is just as broken and scared. We are always at a loss of words when we are overwhelmed, that is the questionable half trying to portray its needs by making us numb. But at that very moment we also feel like bursting out with words, to be able to express the anxiety or happiness within, that is the certain half trying to calm your mind and make you feel like its all real.

When I started writing this article, I was not sure whether people will understand what I am trying to express, or the fact that everything indeed is divided into two parts no matter people understand it or not. Eventually, I sat down to write it, because I realized that nothing in this world is complicated enough to be not able to understand (not even Climate Change). If we do not understand some things, maybe because we do not belong there or we aren’t trying hard enough. Sometimes we do understand a situation, but we refuse to accept it, that is the questionable half of you confusing your conscience.

When we talk about the two halves, we feel that the certain half is the good one, the one that supports us and the questionable half always makes us sad. This maybe true in most cases, but know this that there is no good without bad and no bad without good. The questionable half may seem annoying and frustrating, but the part of us that helps to snap out of the worst traumas or heart breaking situations, is the questionable half in play. Without it the certain half will drag you down, in emotions and will kill you slowly from inside.

” We’ve all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That’s who we really are. “

Sirius Black (Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix)

I do not know how far the depth of the halves have seeped into you, but I am sure you will be able to appreciate both of them for making you the person you are today. If you are not fond of yourself, you know which half to work on. The little voice inside you that tells you the wrong from the right is the questionable half. The part that lets you drown in happiness or sorrow is the certain half. Although the uncertainty of the certain half makes you go bananas, the certainty of the questionable half keeps you sane. Stay crazy!